Thursday, October 28, 2010

Enough

I'm so fucking depressed. Last tuesday was my 50th brithday what a fucking big deal. I've left a lot behind me and have nothing before me. Does it make fucking sense to keep living? My life sucks. I'm a shame for my own little child. At my age my father had gathered success in life, he had managed to build a wonderful house in Francisco Sosa in Coyoacán, one of the most prestigious streets in México City, he had paid private schools for three children and had given his wife almost everething she wanted. I'm not able to pay my fucking little debts. I wouldn't be able to pay my son a private school, I can't afford a dentist that I badly need, I probably won't be by my sister's for this fucking damn Christmas to her disappointment cause I have not fucking enough money to pay a damn train or cheap flight ticket. Is that a life?
I don't do any intelectual work any more, I just sit at a desk like any cheap fucking receptionist. I get no respect from customers, they think I'm a damn shit employee whit -10 IQ. May be they are right. Who would give up a wonderful diplomat job to be hotelière? Only a fucking asshole like me!
So tell me is there any fucking reason to celebrate my fucking 50th birthday? NO WAY!!
I hope I die before 60! Who cares no body is reading this shit, I'm so fucking boreing.

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3 comments:

  1. astralOctober 29, 2010 at 3:47 AM

    Wow, slow down a little!
    First of all, happy birthday (even if it's a few days later). Hope all your dreams come true!

    Second, Eduardo, wake up!! You have a very beautiful baby in your life, a very handsome partner (I saw him on the youtube video), a very warm home and you live in one of the most beautiful cities.
    Money isn't everything and I think you know that or else you wouldn't "give up the diplomat job to be a hotelier".
    And for all it counts, I am reading "this shit" and I hope you live long enough to see grandchildren!!

    Despina.

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  2. E ANovember 1, 2010 at 2:56 AM

    Hello Despina! Thank you for your lovely message. Some times I lose my mind and feel deep in the shit, winter is always really difficult in this branch, but you're right, I shouldn't give up so easy and should rather concentrate in the positiv aspects of life.
    Thank you for the reading and teh wonderful message.
    Best wishes!
    Eduardo

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  3. AndréFebruary 18, 2011 at 11:17 AM

    Hi Eduardo...don´t to afraid, look the wonderful things in your life: job, partner, friends and health, you have the most important things.
    Count on me :)

    Your friend from Rio/Brazil

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