The definition of tired

Do you know the definition of "tired"? Or let's put it in this way: do you know my definition of "tired"? Well here it comes: tired is the physical and psychical condition you get in when you realise that your stupid life has reached the point of no return and from there on everything will get only worse and all chances to get a little bit better are definitely and absolutely excluded.

When you get into such a condition you are aware that everything you've done in the past was useless and that everything you do for the future will be exactly so uselss, your whole life was and will be a waste of energy.

The ballance of risks and chances didn't really work in an optimal way, and the constellation of oportunities and decisions was not the ideal one, or let's say the fair one. When you're going through a mobbing situation you are not fit to take the most reasonable decisions, exactly as when you drive on an awful narrow road and you take the wrong exit in your anxiety to find a wider road but the engineers had messed up the construction and it happens to be a going-no-where exit; of course you want to reverse but, baby dearest, since it is a very messy road you are now sinking in the mud, so you only

have two options: stay for ever in the car or take out your shoes and keep going on the stinking mud knowing you are walking all along the aimless road!

I'm sure you are saying yourself right now "What the hell! All this shit is nothing more than a self pity weepy-fag exageration, pfuagh!!" well sorry tough macho /domina guys, maybe it is a blody exageration but anyway believe me when you are in this mood there is no way to see things in any objective manner. Or do you happen to be immune to weakness? HA!

But as cheerfull as I always try to be I will not finish this post without pointing out at least one positive fact and it is that I'm really happy to find out that there is a SECOND FOLLOWER reading my blog!!! My fans are multiplying!! I love you Despina, whoever you are, big hugs!

Aren't these really good news in the middle of the slum? Even in the hell shines the sun from time to time :-))))))))