Enough

I'm so fucking depressed. Last tuesday was my 50th brithday what a fucking big deal. I've left a lot behind me and have nothing before me. Does it make fucking sense to keep living? My life sucks. I'm a shame for my own little child. At my age my father had gathered success in life, he had managed to build a wonderful house in Francisco Sosa in Coyoacán, one of the most prestigious streets in México City, he had paid private schools for three children and had given his wife almost everething she wanted. I'm not able to pay my fucking little debts. I wouldn't be able to pay my son a private school, I can't afford a dentist that I badly need, I probably won't be by my sister's for this fucking damn Christmas to her disappointment cause I have not fucking enough money to pay a damn train or cheap flight ticket. Is that a life?

I don't do any intelectual work any more, I just sit at a desk like any cheap fucking receptionist. I get no respect from customers, they think I'm a damn shit employee whit -10 IQ. May be they are right. Who would give up a wonderful diplomat job to be hotelière? Only a fucking asshole like me!

So tell me is there any fucking reason to celebrate my fucking 50th birthday? NO WAY!!

I hope I die before 60! Who cares no body is reading this shit, I'm so fucking boreing.

I can't believe it! I have a new follower, the fourth one! That's really awesome.

Hey Kelsie Mortimer thank you. I guess you have some links to Mexico since you know the dia de muertos. Well it's an honour to have a new fresh follower. I will try my best to keep this blog up dated so all my four dear followers keep reading it.

I only have to add that the damned color tool is not working any more, so my texts won't be so "bunt" as they say in german. But as you have already realised I have found the way to put some color on it: just copy the color text from Word!

By the way Kelsie, pity I din't know about you before my weding in Berlin in 2001, you would have done wonderful pictures of it!

At last!

Yeah! At last someone has already insulted me on youtube for beeing openly gay in the video produced by Canal 11 TV. The author is "jradetzky" and has called me FAG. It feels wonderful!

Interesting the color tool is not working, that means in the future my texts will be only black and white :-/